Balance

Since I have gone back to work full time (only for 2 weeks now) I have had a hard time trying to figure out how the heck people balance their lives with a baby! How am I supposed to be a mom, work 40 hours a week, spend time with my hubby, train for a half marathon that I was crazy and signed up for, sleep and get stuff done around the house? I am two weeks behind on my half marathon training. I was supposed to start the week I went back to work. I was already sad about missing Allison all day then I'd come home to change into workout clothes and leave her again? I thought about doing it after she goes to sleep, but our gym is only open until 10 and sometimes little missy doesn't go to sleep until then. But then when she goes to sleep, that's my time to hang out with Brandon and get my stuff ready for work the next day. It's so hard!
I signed up for a half marathon on mother's day because I didn't want to stop doing the things that I love doing because I have a baby. So many people do that and I didn't want to fall into that same pattern. I knew it was going to be hard, but I think I will feel really great when I finish. I am not running for time like I used to, but just to do it...and it will hopefully help me get rid of this extra flab I have going on. :)
So for the last two weeks I had a cold and didn't want to run when it was snowy. But last night I just had to do it. I just have to sacrifice 2-3 nights a week to be away from my little princess a little bit longer and then I can run on the weekends. It ended up working out! (no pun intended..hee hee). I got home about 5 and quickly changed my clothes to go run. My mom was watching her yesterday so she didn't mind having her all to herself for a little bit longer. I went running at 5:30 and was done and showered by 6:15 or so. Not bad! Yes I missed hanging out with Allison in the evening but I was there to give her a bath and get her to bed by 8 or so and still had the evening to get things done. I think because our mom's are watching her right now, I know she is getting 100% attention and is getting the care and love that she needs. When she starts daycare in April, she will probably be my running buddy so I can still hang out with her.
I've also thought about making Allison's food. How many people actually do that? On top of all of this, do I really have time on the weekends to prepare her baby food for the week? I might try it, but I feel as long as I buy the Earth's Best brand I won't feel as guilty. Should I even feel guilty?
Sometimes I get into my head that I have to do all of this on my own. Brandon keeps reminding me that he's there and I can just ask for help and he'd do it. I'm so thankful for Brandon. He has been a HUGE help on everything. Adjusting his schedule so I can go running and then helping me with the chores while I'm holed up in Allison's room feeding her. Sometimes it's just easier for me to put her to sleep than him so he's been making my lunches lately. Yay! And thank goodness for our mom's! They have been making us dinner so we can play with Allison when we get home. I will miss having them here all the time when daycare starts.
Well I'm rambling. I think I am slowly getting it together, but it's still hard for me to figure it all out. I wish I was more of an organized person. :)