Love

My brother-in-law, Andrew (Nikki's hubby) is a firefighter. He mainly goes on medical calls more often than actually fighting fires. We always hear his many different stories. Some are sad, some are really funny...like a girl having uncontrollable diarrhea. But yesterday something really broke my heart. I probably shouldn't be writing this, but I can't stop thinking about it. Sorry if I ruin everyone's day. My friend saw Andrew and a couple fire engines and aid cars at an apartment complex by their house. She texted me to ask me what was going on. Me being the nosey person I am, was curious too so I had to find out. I don't think Andrew would have told me without me asking, but I found out that a 15 month old had died. I wish I never found out. I have been thinking and crying about that family ever since. Now that I have a baby of my own, I can't handle these stories. I am absolutely heartbroken for that family. I can't imagine how their life is changed forever.
Last night when I was up many times with Allison, I was sooo tired and frustrated. I thought about it though and I am so grateful that she is here for me to wake up for. I love this little girl so much. She is my world. I never ever thought I could love anyone as much as I love her. I have always heard that is true, but once you have a baby, you have no idea. I am so blessed to have such a happy and healthy little girl. I don't want anything to ever happen to her. I could just hold her all day long if I could. A friend's blog title is called 'Live for today and hope for tomorrow.' I love those words. They are so true. Just live everyday in the moment and count your blessings.